Hurting

There are many things I think that are making me hurt.
But one in particular.
And I decided not to analyze my feelings in a logical way.
So here I am, God, raw and sore and wounded.
Unintentionally.
Completely without guile.
I've been hurt by silence.
By silence.

Logistics seem minimally connected to my hurt.
The reasons are small.
But my heart is hurting.
I found out today that a well-known worship leader
will be up here in AK this summer. For a little over a week. And he will be in several cities. Except two major ones: Anchorage and Fairbanks. The two largest cities outside of the Valley. Why? I don't know. All I've known is silence.
Want to know how I found out?
I discovered 24-7 prayer. Went to the national gathering. Discovered Sean Feucht and Burn 24-7. Went to the website, found the itinerary. Little info. Posted on FB. Friend down in TEXAS, tells me where to find out more. Check it out. See a website attached to the event. Look up website, find a ministry here in AK. Never heard of it. It's located in the Valley, only about 45mins to an hour away. It's pretty big. Ask around. No one has heard of it. Either it is the best kept secret, or people are keeping quiet for other reasons.
Can't find anything disagreeable with what I see on the website. I keep wondering why a movement/ministry focused on prayer and worship and youth and fire, etc...has gone by so quiet. I am pretty sure their website is pretty new, so it may be that they are just starting to grow or something, but regardless...

I'm hurt. I'm hurt. And yet not angry. Just...wounded.
Why are the churches of Anchorage so...separated? Why are they so bad at communicating between each other about events, sharing these events, etc. Why have I never heard of any of these things at my church? I know part of the reason why. Why do we who believe in tongues (praying without an interpreter), prophecy, worship (all-out), have to keep so quiet and hidden?

We do. I've only recently seen people start coming "out of the wood-works" as it were...and that because I am finally being bolder about MY beliefs/involvement.

I don't know what to feel.