I can't really fail lightly. I fail, and I fail hard.
And I've discovered that whenever I share something that God is doing in my life or that I want to do I always fail. So how to know when to stay quiet and when to share? I have no clue.
Started off the New Year horribly, pretty much sucking my way through the weekend. Fail big time.
So what now? I want to change, I want to be joyful and happy again because I'm walking beside God all the way. Bah. I'm depressed, lazy, selfish, too proud to take advice. I have WAY too many faults that need to be addressed.
I miss you. God. I haven't seen you in a while. Haven't talked with you. Let myself ignore you and ran away from every conversation you wanted to have with me. I rebelled like a child against all the good you have stored up for me. I was scared. I was scared and ran away instead of running to you.
Now how to get back?
How to be with you again...
God, I hate my pride.
Please break me.
Break me so that I can come to you
With nothing.
Please.
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